What if you could rewrite your story? What if the fear of staying the same outweighed the fear of starting over?
It has been 10 days since I last wrote a blog. For someone who found writing so addicting, this pause felt like a failure. I went from writing every single day to suddenly feeling no urge to put my thoughts on paper.
I’ve been asking myself why. What happened to the rhythm I had built? As I reflect, I realize a few significant factors contributed to this pause.
Making a Life-Changing Decision
Recently, I made a decision that didn’t just impact me—it deeply affected my children as well. For days, I was consumed with doubt. I prayed, tossed and turned at night, and woke up in a panic wondering, Did I make the right choice?
This decision required me to step away from all that was familiar and comfortable. I booked a one-way ticket, 1,300 miles away from everything I knew, to create the life I envision for myself and my family.
Facing Fear with Faith
Here’s the truth about life: we will never know the outcome unless we take that first step. Sometimes, that step leads to two steps forward and three steps back—but that’s okay. It’s all part of the journey.
Do I have it all figured out? Absolutely not. Am I afraid of failure? No, because I’m more afraid of not trying at all. What if it works out? I refuse to live with regrets.
Reclaiming Myself and Starting Fresh
It has been almost six years since my divorce, six years of navigating life as a single mother. In that time, I slowly began losing myself. The version of me I once knew was slipping away, and I knew it was time to make a change.
Within a few weeks of speaking to my ex-husband and family about leaving the state, things began falling into place. It felt as though everything was happening at the right time.
Now, in this new state, I’m focused on rebuilding and rediscovering. There are so many pieces to put together:
- Getting a new license.
- Finding new doctors for my family.
- Researching the best schools and neighborhoods for my children.
While it’s overwhelming at times, it’s also liberating. This fresh start has reignited my focus on what truly matters.
Building My Dream Life
This move has given me the opportunity to prioritize what I’ve always wanted: growing my social media presence and running my online business full-time.
If there’s one thing I could do every single day, it would be writing. Writing has always been my passion—a place where I can express myself freely, explore new ideas, and share my truth. That’s why I’m thrilled to announce the launch of my new personal blog, bilquisbali.com.
Through this blog, I’m focusing on two things close to my heart:
- Educating nurses and nurse leaders: Sharing insights, strategies, and stories to empower those navigating the complex world of healthcare.
- Inspiring women: Showing that no matter where you are starting, you have the power to create the life you’ve always dreamed of.
This is my chance to write unapologetically, to reclaim my voice, and to show others that they, too, can rewrite their narrative.
Here’s to the Journey
Starting fresh is never easy, but it’s always worth it. I’ve learned that success doesn’t come from staying comfortable; it comes from taking risks, embracing failure, and believing in your ability to adapt and grow.
This is my story, and I’m okay with the twists and turns. I’m okay with failing and trying again, because each step brings me closer to the life I want to attract for myself and my children.
Here’s to the journey, the challenges, and the growth that comes from pursuing what truly matters.
A Final Thought
“You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.” —Wayne Gretzky
Have you ever taken a leap of faith? Share your story below—I’d love to hear it.